Random.
Friday, March 2, 2012 | 0 comments
The feeling is like you both have a crush on a same unknown mister. Just someone you admire even though he is a stranger to you. Fortunately one day, that mister becomes your friend. And since she is your best friend, you share everything about the mister to her. His personality and attractiveness that caused you to drown in your own feeling. Someday, you introduce the mister to your best friend. Well, it is okay to be friends right? You want her to know someone special to you, even though you and the mister are just friends. Best friend forever. However, later, you accidentally discovered that your best friend and the mister are in a special relationship. Secretly, as your best friend never told you about their status nor her feeling towards the mister before. It feels like a betrayal. Yes, the mister deserves to choose as this is regarding his own feeling and life. While your best friend shouldn't be blame as she didn't commit any crime. Unless the mister is your boyfriend then that can be considered as wrong. But you feel hurt. Hurt to the core of your heart, causes a distraction on the blood pumping activity and hence, you feel numb. You just naturally feel the pain although you clearly know no one does wrong in this situation. Paradox. Ada faham? The situation is different but the feeling is almost the same. I wish you good luck friend!
:)
What a prologue! And hey, today is the second day of March. Time flies really fast isn't it? However, my update is getting slower lately. It takes me longer time to publish a post. Pfft. Well, am back to the hectic life of a student as the sixth semester has just begun and I am totally exhausted this week. Plus plus, I am officially 22 years + 1 week old today. OLD. I received an early present from Mr. Gendut which is a novel, I went for a lunch with my family and the next day, I blew 4 candles on a cake bought by my nieces. Thank you! May I manage to success in my study and career and of course, earn lots of kaching to get richer. Amin.
;)
You love somebody else...
Monday, February 20, 2012 | 0 comments
This song, Somebody Else by Se7en brought back all those hurtful memories.
The lyrics describes the story well.
And, I love Se7en.
♥
니가 사랑하는 somebody else
난 여기 서있는데
널 가질 수 없는 거라면
니 기억과 춤추고 싶어
Somebody else
난 여기 서있는데
이 모든게 꿈인거라면
니 기억과 춤추고 싶어
바라볼 수 있지만 다가갈 수 없어
용기가 없어 멀어질 것 같아서
So I’m waiting and I’m waiting
끝이 어딘지 모르지만
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You love somebody else
Though I am standing here
If I can't have you
Then I want to dance with your memories
Somebody else
Though I am standing here
If everything is a dream
I want to dance with your memories
I can look at you but I can't approach you
I have no courage because I'm afraid we might grow far apart
So I'm waiting and I'm waiting
Though I don't know where the end is
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But, it's ended.
I've moved on and I love everything right now as things are just seems to be dandy.
:)
Fun Time!
Saturday, February 11, 2012 | 1 comments
Saturday but an awesome Saturday. It's been too long since the last time I hang out with these peeps : Zul , Aa , Aieyn. At last I got the chance today. :D
Received a phone call from a friend yesterday, asking us to join a sushi making competition as they have no participants yet. So, we just grab the chance even though we have no experience in rolling the sushi nor arranging the ingredients and whatsoever things related to sushi - except - eating sushi. The theme is Valentine so last night, we googled & youtubed anything that resulted in beautiful plus creative sushi. Trust me, I wished we won. HAHAHA. We were late to the competition and luckily, the organizer was willing to wait for us. I got so nervous before the event okay? There were 14 partners joining and the moment I knew the contestant's number increased, my hope broke down. At first I thought we can get the consolation prize at least. Event starts. As we were too beginner, things got messed. Especially mine and Zul's sushi, they are just fugly. And of course, we won nothing. HAHAHA. We got last I guessed, due to the messiness and ugliness that can't be denied. :/
But but, luckily Aa and Aieyn won the third prize and lucky for the second time, the four of us made an agreement that whoever win something, we must share the prize. Bonus for me and Zul. :P
♥ the two in white shirt are new friends, I guessed. :P ♥
We spent the remaining hours at The Spring & Giant Hypermart. Pfft...cam sikda tempat lain bah. D:
And we planned a little belated birthday celebration for Aieyn. Happy birthday gorgeous! May the days ahead are way more amazing than days before. We heart you!
;)
Syukur :)
Tuesday, January 31, 2012 | 0 comments
The craziness of waiting has just ended.
SEM 5's RESULT!
While everyone got busy with the update in facebook few hours ago, I slept heavily.
I woke up super early today to send my cousin to the airport and stay awake just to have a peek at my result.
Alhamdulillah.
I'm so grateful with what I've got even though I haven't met my target.
Improved, almost there, but not there yet.
The result is expected as my effort wasn't strong enough to help me gain best result.
At least I didn't fail any eh?
Thank you Allah!
* gratefulness overload *
:)
Because...
Saturday, January 28, 2012 | 0 comments
Best friend, do I have any?
A question.
I've been struggling for days, trying to ignore the unstable mind.
My mind, keeps arguing about things that might not even breathe in the reality.
My mind, keeps replaying all the films from my extinct phase of life.
I've promised myself to be a good girlfriend but I broke the promise today, again.
I've moved on and tried to forget the past but there are some that can't neither be erased nor bleached.
They will keep haunting you even when you say you care no more.
You'll keep searching for all the flaws on yourself to help you keep awake, away from the ache that may follow.
Trying to run away from the pain but you actually cause paroxysm to another soul.
I was a best friend.
As time gradually passed, I learn that I'm no longer committed to the friendship.
Whose fault?
I'm confused but as likely as not, me and 7 years of friendship sinks.
Today, I read a fellow's blog.
And I started to get the jealousy of how close she is with all of her best friends.
Those friends, who'll be with you no matter when you're doleful nor gleeful.
They are not those, who only show you their existence when they need a little lift.
I have lots of the second those and it's sicking.
But still, I'm grateful for having a few bit of what I called besties.
Jumping thoughts.
Now I found that the prologue doesn't match the epilogue.
Bipolariac.
I'm losing track and everything will stop here.
Labels: bipolar
Credits : Jaja
